Okay, so why the title Motherhood Unsettled? The dictionary defines unsettled as this:
1. Marked by disorder and unrest. This definitely describes my life.
2. Not decided: unresolved. I don't know about the rest of you moms, but sometimes I have to ask myself, "is this really what I chose, I decided to do this?" And I am often left thinking of unresolved issues about my decision, feelings of wanting to do more and be more than just mom.
And my most favorite:
3. Not paid as an account. See, the way I figure it, my husband, society, the universe, SOMEBODY owes me for the last 18 years of unpaid service, and I'm starting to feel like I'm ready to collect on that debt.
Now before all you perfectly awesome mothers get all 'high and mighty' on me, let me tell you this: I love my kids dearly, and I wouldn't trade being a mom for the world. Motherhood is just much different from what I had envisioned it. I always wanted to be a mother, but the no sleep, being barfed on, pooped on, never ending laundry and constant messes, well, that's not exactly part of the dream, know what I mean?
I'm just at a point in my life where I want to be able to be real and talk about how my day to day life is, as boring and uninteresting as it may be. I plan on talking about lots of different subjects, from kids, to husbands, to fashion and everything in between. (Although you will not find me sharing craft projects or cooking tips, I'm more of a buy it already made and order a pizza kind of mom). I have hopes, dreams, and desires that I'd like to be able to share with others, and let other moms know that it's okay to be a mom and still want something more, it's okay to be unsettled. Welcome to my little piece of the net. (Hear that? Something that's MINE)!